Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Looks like if Terry keeps doing well he will be coming home with us on Thursday. Now, before y'all get busy screaming and jumpin' for joy, remember this child is being taken from his mother, and that is heart breaking. It is a strange, awkward set of emotions that we have. We really don't want any congratulations, or we're so excited for you or anything like that. I'm not sure what to feel, as I have never done this before and right now I'm just, well, conflicted. Maybe it is like being promoted at work while your friend gets fired, not sure.
As for Connie she is solid,as always, and has a decent handle on the situation. She, like me, has committed to a specified amount of time to hold on to Terry, then we will evaluate how this placement has affected her, me, our marriage, our kids (individually), and our family unit as whole. Please keep in mind that this is a temporary placement and for all we know they might reunite Terry with his family, we don't know. He is not up for adoption, so we have no choice to make as far as that goes.
I am not sure what will happen in the near future, and frankly, I hope someone else makes the tough decisions for me, but because I failed to lead and be honest with my wife about the foster/adoption stuff over a year ago, I think God is going to present me with a choice that I have to make. I really hope that God puts me in the situation I envision in my head, so that I can actually make a hard choice and be a real man to my wife and family. I need wisdom.
Please keep praying for Terry's mom and our family.